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Kyla Freitag
Dear Friends,
It is with
great sadness and heavy hearts that we must let you know that
our sweet Kyla died on June 14th, 1999. In April we noticed her
stumbling again, and an MRI of her brain showed tumor growth.
We immediately increased her dose of medications in the hopes
of stopping the tumor again.
In June she
seemed worse and another MRI showed slight growth and mild hydrocephalus.
We took her into the emergency room on Sunday evening , June 13th,
because she seemed worse, we assumed from the hydrocephalus. Soon
after we arrived at the ER Kyla said quietly "Come on, lets
go" and giggled. She was not speaking to anyone but rather
seemed to be talking to something we couldn't see. After she spoke
those words she started to yawn every few seconds and was becoming
less aware of things around her.
We called
the doctors into the room and I (Juliet) kept telling Kyla how
much I loved her. She slightly nodded when I asked her if she
knew how much I loved her. She was rushed to get a CT scan, which
sadly showed bleeding into the tumor. The doctors explained that
with the type of tumor Kyla had this was not uncommon when there
has been some growth. At this point Kyla was in a coma. They told
us Kyla was not in any pain but that she would not wake back
up. We were told she probably would not make it until morning.
Around 7:35
am on Monday June 14th Kyla took her last breaths. We said our
good-byes and kissed her then wheeled her empty stroller out of
the hospital. The staff gave us a lock of her hair, her footprints
and a plaster cast of her hand.
Kyla was buried
in Nebraska where Buck was raised and where we shall move. The
ceremony was very special as we blew bubbles over her casket as
it was lowered into the ground. She was dressed in her princess
outfit, crown , dance shoes, and some of her favorite toys were
placed in
beside her.
Our hearts
are broken to say the least. Returning home was so hard, and we
see Kyla everywhere we turn. She gave us so much in her four and
more years with us. She taught us about courage, hope, happiness,
among others things. We are lost without her, but will go on and
try to make a difference in this world to honor her. We will never
stop telling people about her, and she will always be our daughter,
our Kyla.
We will be
moving back to Nebraska it seems. It was very hard to leave her
grave there but we knew we would return. Life has been hard. It
is time to step back to a slower pace of life and try to find
some comfort. Plus Savannah and Braelyn need to be in a place
where they can play without cars whizzing by. It's time to rest.
Please do
not be afraid to speak to us or about Kyla. Things may be uncomfortable
for awhile but we will all find a way.
In Loving
Memory of:
Kyla Louise
Freitag
November 1, 1994--June 14, 1999
"Our brave little dancer"
Sincerely,
Buck, Juliet, Savannah, "Angel" Kyla, and Braelyn Freitag
P.S. Thank
you, Dr. Burzynski, for the time you gave us with Kyla. We are
forever grateful. Because you cared, Kyla danced....
In September
of 1996 our world came crashing down when our 22-month-old daughter
Kyla was diagnosed with an inoperable brain stem tumor called
a pontine glioma. After months of misdiagnosis the doctors finally
found an egg-sized tumor in Kylas brain that was causing
her to have trouble walking, swallowing, and causing her left
eye to turn inward. At that point, we were told that the tumor
was incurable and nothing would save our little girl.
Refusing to
give up hope, we took her to the highly recommended brain tumor
team at Duke Childrens Hospital. Unfortunately, they also
told us that Kylas tumor was incurable. However, they recommended
a protocol of high-dose chemotherapy in the hope it would extend
her life.
We agreed
to this treatment, and we prayed for a miracle. Within 5 months,
however, Kylas body could not take any more chemotherapy.
Her immune system was not rebounding, and her kidneys had begun
to flush out essential minerals. Kyla spent most of that time
lying listlessly on the couch, sitting up only to throw up four
to six times a day. Even though she was alive, she was not living.
At this time,
we discussed our options with the doctors at Duke. Because of
Kylas young age, they could not recommend radiation. All
they had left to offer was low-dose chemotherapy. Because Kyla
was already on high-dose chemotherapy with no tumor shrinkage,
we decided to give her body a break and try something else. The
doctors at Duke supported our decisions and agreed that Kyla had
had enough.
We had heard
of Dr. Burzynski through the father of one of his patients, a
little boy named Eric Zielinski who is close to Kylas age
and also has a brain tumor. Erics dad Tim and I had spoken
frequently about Dr. Burzynskis treatment, as well as our
kids and their fight against cancer. Tim told me about how Eric
had also been through chemotherapy until he couldnt take
anymore and how they had taken him to Dr. Burzynski. It sounded
as if he could have been talking about Kyla. Finally, I called
the Burzynski Clinic. Kyla's father and I then decided that her
life was worth taking a chance on this treatment.
In March of
1997, after being told Kyla only had 2 months to live, we headed
to Texas. At the time, Dr. Burzynski was in court with the FDA,
and we didnt even know if their would be a treatment by
the time we arrived in Texas. It was in a restaurant in Georgia
that we heard Dr. Burzynski would be able to continue to treat
patients. We were relieved and continued on to Houston.
Kyla started
Dr. Burzynskis therapy on March 7, 1997, after getting FDA
approval to be on the treatment. We now celebrate March 7th as
Kylas other birthday, because it is the day she was given
back her life. Only a parent who has been told their child has
no hope of survival knows what it feels like to be handed that
hope back. From day one on antineoplaston therapy, Kyla had no
serious side effects, and certainly none like she had on chemotherapy.
On it, she stopped walking, talking, and even moving; to see her
smile was rare. On Dr. Burzynskis treatment the only side
effects we have seen are increased thirst, an occasional rash,
and increased urine output. Every side effect is taken seriously
by the Clinic, and Kyla's dosage is adjusted accordingly.
I am happy
to say that Kyla is talking again, has a head full of golden curls,
smiles every day, and recently has begun to crawl again. Today,
May 26, 1998, she even stood on her own two feet without support!
I cannot express what it is like to see life come back into her
body. I can say what it was like to see her suffer so much from
the chemotherapy she was on before. It ripped my heart out, and
to this day I feel guilty for agreeing to put her through that.
I cannot change that, but I can keep her on Dr. Burzynskis
treatment, which has never harmed her and has given her a life
worth living.
We feel we
have made the best choice for Kyla. She has far outlived the time
frame we were given when we left Duke in February of 1997. On
antineoplastons, MRIs of her tumor have shown that it has remained
stable, a miracle in itself. A PET scan in November of 1997 showed
decreased metabolic activity of the tumor.
To some this
might just sound like a testimonial, but I say it like I see it.
My daughter was not supposed to be alive today, but she is. There
is no disputing that. I am grateful there was another option for
Kyla. I am grateful that Dr. Burzynski stuck to his guns and was
able to offer this treatment to my daughter. I am grateful that
every day Kyla smiles at me.
Juliet Freitag
This patient
has requested to be contacted through Burzynski Patient Group.
<maryjo@siegel.net>
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